To Live

Note to Self: Go with your head, you're heart is an idiot. That is all.

How is it, when you're just getting ready to log off the computer, after endless hours of useless surfing that followed a very long ordinary day, a small and almost missable message appears in the corner of your face book. "Hey whats up" it reads, from someone you haven't spoken to in 5, no, 7 years. It's late, you're tired and you have to work. So why is it that you suddenly decided to answer? what causes that slight hesitation before closing the browser that makes you decide, "Why not?" Is it curiousity? boredom? and before you even know it, you've responded.

Perhaps, and just perhaps, it is the unique little life experiences such as this, that truly make life interesting. speaking with someone who you haven't "heard" in years can bring bac both memories and feelings. Do I remember how I used to be back then? how I used to feel? Yes, the memories come back quickly and easily. I've changed so much, has he? can I trust him? Do I dare? my head says no, my heart wants to believe it will be ok. will it be? only time will tell.

..........fuck..........

Didn't see that one coming.

My application to the EPIK program has been rejected. No interview, no nothin. why? who the hell knows. apparently they aren't even telling people why anymore (new policy...how convenient) So what now? who the hell knows. my recruiter is trying to find me a private school position but will that even happen? hard to say. UGH. So steps: 1) Try to get a private school job 2) Try to get a position in Taiwan 3) Apply for Graduate school 4) dig my own hole...just kidding. :-) but seriously. FML. I didn't see that coming. why? I don't know, just didn't. I thought I would at least get an interview. I should have known though. everything else was simply going too smoothly. got accepted by a really awesome recruiter, got all of my paperwork smoothly and in time, got luggage, electronics, etc on special deals, began to get excited. once again, fml.

Not that anyone really cares or even reads this, BUT, My whole Music of the month thing is going to move to my Korea journal starting in October. It only makes since seeing how all of the music is Kpop :-) lol. Anywho, Here is the link to that blog if you're interested.

This is about all of my preparation and eventual adventures in Korea.

http://kelseyinkorea.blogspot.com/

Better Late than Never Right? lol. Man, I've been SO busy. Oh well. This Month's music spot goes to....

G Dragon's Heartbreaker!

Although he is a member of big Bang, he has now come out with a new single album. Which, by the way, is now under fire for plagarizism. Oh well, it's still good!

I actually don't like this music video, or G Dragon for that matter. But the song is catchy and has stuck with me all month. lol. Check it out (Watch the 2nd video for sure, the beginning is awesome! lol) :

Music Video



This Live performance is WAY better. check out the very beggining if nothing else.

Man, in less than 5 days i will be walking across the stage, shaking Gordon Gee's Hand and receiving my BA in English Literature. The idea of this is kind of mind blowing. I have much to write on the topic but for now, enjoy an extremely well done fan made music video from All-American Reject's "The Future has Arrived". Talk about appropriate!



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wre4Px7SuRc

Toodles and Schnoogles,

K.C.

Question: Who is the largest Boy Band in the World????

Answer: Korea's Super Junior! (13 members!)

I LOVE their song "Sorry, Sorry" Check it out. you won't be sorry! Their dance moves rock :-)



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6QA3m58DQw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AAWqnA8PdcY

Check out the inmates that immitated the dance:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_43TO_OPj-8

This month's song isn't really new. it's been out for almost 6 months now. However, it is still my favorite Korean Pop song of all time! (The funny thing is, it was originally made for an Ad but made it big. lol) so, anywho, this month's song goes to....

BIG BANG AND 2NE1'S LOLLIPOP!!!!!!

Check it out (and make it through the 1st 10 seconds) and you won't be sorry!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zIRW_elc-rY

P.S. I LOVE t.o.p. his voice is the most original voice i've ever heard in the music industry. plus, it doesn't hurt that he's easy on the eyes too :-)

Yes, I know. it's wicked late. BUT. I've been wicked busy. lol. Anywho... July's Music of the month spot goes to.....

GIRL'S GENERATION'S TELL ME YOUR WISH(GENIE)!!!!

now i'm going to post a couple of youtube links but they have been dropping like flies lately. so, on the off chance that my links don't work, just youtube them. it's quick and easy :-)

the full song(not the actual MV) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FLq_VwwJnrI

the full song(but no video) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=95impxeGMPU&feature=related

Live Version (with video) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wAdjAP9HqRk&feature=related

Well, I’m supposed to be writing an 8 page paper right now. Due tomorrow. Something that I have known about for a while but, of course, have put off to the last minute. Why? Who knows. I fail quite often. Lol. My Procrastination is worse than anyone I’ve ever met. I should say that I have been incredibly busy lately and let’s face it, I’m DONE with school. Lol. 2 weeks and 2 days left! (aka 10 days left!) It really hit me when I went to buy my Tassel today at the bookstore. Lol. I still have plenty of school work left but it’s nothing compared to last quarter. Last quarter was almost the death of me. Between two term papers, logic and desperately trying to stay away in Social Stratification, it just was not an easy quarter. So, everyone has been asking me (constantly…lol) about what I plan to do after I graduate. Well, here is the plan. I plan to apply for several positions overseas that will begin in February. Yes, I’m still planning on applying to South Korea, despite the recent developments. However, I may apply to a couple of Taiwan positions as well, we’ll see. I will apply to work for GPIK (Seoul Public Schools) and EPIK (more specifically a position in either Daegu or Jeju Island). In Taiwan I would like to be near Taipei, more specifically near Danshui (the perfect blend of City Life, College Campus and right on the river/ocean! Not to mention it‘s right on the rail into Taipei central).
I am, However, planning to also apply to several school programs, well, at least one. I’ll be applying for Graduate School at OSU. If I get in, it will be a matter of whether or not I can afford to go. With my GPA though, it may be interesting to see if I could even get in (I’m not holding my breath or anything). I am also going to be looking for a second job. No, I’m not leaving my precious Hallmark! Especially not before Christmas! I’ve even considered applying for a management position at Hallmark but we’ll see. I know of a couple possible jobs right now that I’m considering. However, The day after I finish finals I am having my Wisdom teeth out and will be down for a week. Therefore, I want to wait until after getting all that crap done before I start looking too seriously. Plus, practically half of August I’ll be out of town or graduating, etc. it’s really a very busy time for me!
So besides all of the boring future plans / college crap that I just forced you all to read, what has been going on with me? Not a whole lot. However, considerably more than I would say the last six months or so combined. I’ve recently made some new friends. Brooke, also an English Major, has become my reading buddy. We’re slowly but surely working our way through Jane Austen over the summer then we’re having a huge Jane Austen movie fest this fall when she gets back into town! I’m pumped. No one else I know has ever shown real interest in Austen / Austen movies (which are my guilty pleasure… one of many!). Soojin is also a recent friend of mine. She’s from Korea and is a student at OSU as well. We met through OSU international and it’s been a blast so far! I recently went to her house for dinner. She and her mom made a ton of traditional Korean dishes and they were amazing! SOO good! She and her mom are both extremely nice! She and I have tons of similarities too. I think it was one of those situations when you meet someone and know you’re instantly going to be great friends! I’m helping her with her English and she’s helping my with my Korean and we’re just having a blast so far. It’s nice to finally have someone to talk to who even knows who Girl’s Generation is! Let alone has done her own dace video to one of their songs! (AWESOME by the way! They did such a great job!)
Yes, Things right now have been going really well as a whole. I did however, suffer a huge lose recently. I Know that Barry deserves a whole post all to himself but I think that we’ll just start with this and when I can settle my nerves enough to write a whole post / scan some pictures into the computer then I’ll get that post up. Yes, on July 2nd (Thursday) 2009 around 4:30pm. Barry passed away. We had to have him put to sleep due to the loss of feeling and function in his back hips and legs. I won’t go into detail about how hard it was to watch my once joyous and bouncy big dog drag his hind legs around, trying desperately just to get out in time to the side yard to pee. This was probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever witnessed. I can’t even express just how hard the loss of someone, someone who has been in my life for 12 years (over half my life), is to deal with. I keep looking for him out in the backyard and back porch. Yes, Barry was a great Dog. Everyone who had ever met Barry loved him. He was one of those dogs who are just filled with nothing but unconditional love. He will be forever missed. I don’t know if I could ever have another dog after having such a good dog as Barry and having to suffer the lose of him like this. I should say, however, that it was a peaceful way to go. A friend of the family is a vet and we took him to her office. They have a really nice grassy/wooded area next to their office and that is where they did it. He was surrounded by family, smiling and panting lovingly ‘til the end. He was a good dog, a great dog and I truly did love him.
Well, now that I’ve made myself start to cry yet again (I’ve been crying off and on since last Wednesday, an entire day before we even took Barry to the vet), and have made this post turn incredibly depressing, let me change the subject. This summer has and is continuing to be all about changes. Changes that I knew were coming and changes that have hit me pretty hard. Changes that have been both good and bad. I know that life is all about change, things are constantly changing and once they change they can rarely return to the way they were before, however, despite knowing this, I hate change. I’m horrible with change and I loathe it. There are some changes that I can deal with easier than others but for the most part, I will fight change to the bitter end. (I’m not kidding, my grandma’s bathroom is still in metallic butterflies because I begged her not to change it like five years ago…and I STILL love that wallpaper by the way! They just don’t make it like that anymore! Lol) With that being said, I’ve been having a really really hard time with the fact that I am going through tons of HUGE changes all at one time.
I’m finishing school. I will no longer be student. I’ve been a student ever since I zipped up my little paper pad, safety scissors and Lisa Frank supply collection into my stylish Yellow, Green and Red Crayola book bag and headed off to my first day of Kindergarten. That was when I was five. I’ve been a student for 16 years of my life. And although I’ve come to loath school (ironic that I want to become a teacher?? I think so) It’s the world that I’ve come to know and the system that I know how to work. So leaving is going to be hard. Also, there is a very large possibility that within the next six months to a year, I’ll be moving out of my home and leaving my family. Something I’ve never done before. I didn’t even live in a dorm during college(NOT something that I regret). I’ve always been an independent person. After all, one of my first phrases was “I can do it myself!” something that my family has never let me live down… probably because it was and still is SO true. I’m incredibly independent and stubborn. Lol. Just the same, all of these changes have been hitting me hard and I don’t really know what to do with myself. I’m just trying to get things done step by step.
Step 1) Finish School
Step 2) Get my Wisdom Teeth out
Step 3) Cincy Tennis!!!! (graduation gift BABY!)
Step 4) graduate, August 30th.
Step 5) Find a Second Job
Step 6) Study for and then take the GRE
Step 7) Apply for Graduate Schools
Step 8) Apply for Positions overseas
Step 9) Throughout all of these steps, save as much money as possible, difficult when you are surrounded by Hallmark Ornaments each day at work! (another guilty pleasure…lol)
Step 10) Take a Breath and see where the next year takes me!

So Yes, this is the overall plan. Lol. I do realize that I have given my a 2 year cushion to take and use to get my crap together. I really thought that I wanted to get overseas ASAP but now that I’m finishing school, the draw of having my masters degree at the age of 22 has become more and more appealing!. What can I say. Lol. We’ll just have to wait and see though. If I don’t get in then I don’t have to worry about it. :-P So yes. With the exception of my Korean Individualized Track Class, I am finishing up OSU courses in two and a half weeks. After that, look forward to my Loved/hated List of OSU. Lol. It will be interesting I promise. Really it should be given to all OSU freshman. It’s just THAT useful :-P lol. Well, Since it’s now 12:30 in the morning and my paper in due in class in 11 hours, I should probably get started writing it! Lol. (not to mention the 20, yes that’s right, 20 copies that I have to make for all of my classmates for our workshop days…ugh. Lol. Anywho. This was therapeutic and now that I’m in a writing groove I feel much more prepared! I love writing late at night sitting here in my comfy pleather chair, with nothing but the attic fan running upstairs, the Korean pop music I’m playing and the occasional car driving by out front for background noise. It’s just perfect. It would be even better if it were raining! :) Well, until next time,

Toodles and Schnoogles

ok, So one song a month just isn't enough! I've been killing myself trying to hold off posting some of the awesome new stuff that has come out! therefore, music of the month is now song of the week! lol.

Well, here it is. my latest invention / bright idea. lol. Song of the Month Posts! Wohoo! So from now on, I'll be posting a new song every month. either one that I just think is awesome and deserves some credit (such as this month's song) or one that fits the mood of the month perfectly! So without further ado, June Song of the Month!

Fire by 2ne1!

If you haven't heard/seen the music video yet, check it at the link below! immediately!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qu5Ld_KnMWA

and if you MUST have subtitles (I suggest you watch without them first!) here you go:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rk8uyj08C-c

Enjoy! and let me know what you think!

Toodles and Schnoogles!

Things to buy before I go Over seas:

Dell Mini Inspiron 10 = $485 (waiting on the 6 cell battery, so maybe more)

Creative Labs Vado Pocket Video Camcorder (Pink) = $66

Creative Zen Mozaic 4 GB MP3 Player (Pink) = $73

Grand total? 624

Oh my gosh. I am So tired. This Schedule is going to be the death of me (or maybe it was staying up late watching the golden globes…hmmm… lol). However, I just got an Oreo Cookie Mocha and that seems to be doing the trick, for now that is. (Which it should! Costing $3.50 for a small!). When the Sugar/Caffeine starts to wear off I’m going to be double tired! AH! Lol. And I have to work tonight… UGH. That is the problem with this schedule. Last quarter I went to school on Tuesdays and Thursdays and worked the other days. I enver had to do both in the same day and that is how I like it. This quarter I don’t have that luxury. I go to School every single day and therefore have to do both. Wah. Lol. (I know I know, I have it SO hard… lol).
So far through, classes seem to be going really well. Except for English 201, which is going to be boring no matter how hard a professor tries. UGH. Brit Lit is such a bore. Minus Shakespeare, Austen and Rowling of course. lol. Otherwise… Snooze fest! (of course there are some other minuet exceptions, such as Tennyson’s Lady of Shalott, but as a whole…Brit Lit SUCKS). Anywho…. Lol. Classes do seem to be going really well. Where as last quarter I was already dreading every single class and already knew I was going to hate the quarter! So yes. A big improvement. Lol. I know this sounds really really stupid and bizarre but I can read the vibes of a classroom and know exactly how the class is going to be and how I’m going to do in it. I think that is why I like online classes. There is no vibe. Just me doing my thing at my own pace. This whole vibe reading thing doesn’t just go for classrooms though, I do the same thing with people, animals, etc. yes. I’m a freak or just completely delusional. Lol. Which ever it is, it isn’t good. Lol.
Anywho… I’ll tell you what I am REALLY enjoying so far! I am taking Hatha Yoga with my mom at the Westerville Community Center and I LOVE it so far. It is a real slow paced, relaxing yoga and at the end there is a deep relaxation (meditation) and I just love it! I am also taking a flex class, the jury is still out on that one. However, it was ok yesterday so I think I’ll end up liking it. Lol. I really want to take Tai Chi at OSU but I won’t be able to get it into my schedule spring quarter. Therefore, my only hope is summer quarter, which probably won’t happen. Oh well, there is a Tai Chi Society based right in Westerville, I could always take classes with them. (I just won’t get credit for doing it! Lol)
I really can’t wait for Summer though. I mean, sure, it’s pretty scary thinking about graduating from college. I’ll no longer be on my parents insurance, I’ll have to get a big girl job, and hell, I’m planning to fly to another country for a year! Lol. But I really can’t even imagine being at OSU for two more years. I would KILL myself. I really do hate OSU. I know a ton of people love it, but I’m not a ton of people. I don’t live on campus, I don’t enjoy having to go to class, having a professor tell me what I’m supposed to think, having to pay hundreds of dollars for books every 10 weeks and I especially don’t enjoy having everything be about grades. Class isn’t about learning. It is about earning a good grade. After all, it’s all about the GPA and test scores isn’t it? Well, that’s what the University system wants you to think. The professors certainly feel that way. (most of them do at least. Sure, they teach and everything. However, why do they teach? So you can get good grades and they can take the credit for it. School is nothing but a big system, it hasn’t been about learning for years!
Wow, I really do get on tangents don’t I? lol. It just goes to show how much I truly do despise OSU. Like I said, this quarter isn’t so bad so far. I really like Sociology (I actually missed that class today. I kept thinking it was Tuesday and was disappointed when I didn’t have to go. Lol) and I always love anything that has to do with film. So Yup. This was a pretty useless entry. Lol. Fueled by my oreo cookie mocha I suppose ;-) lol.

Toodles and Schnoogles,

Slytherin Queen

Christmas Break is finally over and I have to say, THAT IT SUCKS! Break was actually really really awesome this year! Last year I was working so much and my family was working so much that we really didn’t even get a chance to do anything. We got our tree on the 23rd last year. Lol. However, that year was totally different! I still worked a lot, but my hours were awesome and my parents both has two weeks of from work! Therefore, we had time to do a ton of stuff! My family and I stayed up until 3 am almost every single night playing Wii or watching movies :-D it was a blast! My brother and dad and now addicted to Resident Evil, while I’m hooked on Zelda, Mario Cart and improving my super smash skills before the next friend get together. Muhahaha. Lol. (not that I will.. I’ll still suck ass. Lol) Plus, we watched a ton of movies! I can even remember all the movies that I watched this break, that’s how many movies I watched! Lol. Here is a list of just the movies I can remember:

Elf
Santa Claus 2
Muppet Christmas
Veggie Tales the pirates who don’t do anything
Miss Congeniality
Eagle Eye
Ghost Town
Mummy 3
Barbie Nutcracker
Barbie Mariposa
Barbie Diamond Castle
Barbie Island princess
Barbie Christmas Carol
Kung Fu panda
Bedtime Stories
Armageddon
Risky Business
Die Hard
Live Free or Die Hard
Johnny Tsunami
Model Behavior
Persuasion
Sense and Sensibility
Batman Begins
Get Smart
Journey to the Center of the Earth

Considering that I haven’t watched that amount of movies in such a short amount of time since…. I don’t even know when! That is quite an impressive list to me. Lol. (not to mention the fact that I watch some of these movies several times. Lol) Other great things I got to do over break were see the Nutcracker with my grandma, go get the tree with my family! (something we haven’t done in two years), I had a holiday party, which was SO much fun! I hope that everyone who came had as much fun as I did because I had a blast! The icing on the cake being, of course, getting the guys to sit through Barbie Nutcracker! (which is actually a very good movie! I even got my mom to watch it finally. Lol. And she has always been a HUGE Barbie movie skeptic. Lol)
So yes, all the pre-holiday and post-holiday events were a ton of fun! Christmas was even extra great this year. At my grandma’s house on Christmas eve it was just Uncle Rob and Aunt Pam, Grandma, and our family. Then on Christmas day, something kinda neat happened. We usually rip through the presents and everyone goes super fast and no one really gets to see what everyone else got. However, this year it was like everyone wanted to take their time and see what everyone else got. It was very relaxed and it made the present opening Christmas morning even more special. Partially because you actually got to see the look on people’s faces when they opened their gifts and then continued to open and play/fiddle with them and partially because instead of the usual 30 minute mayhem, we took two hours. It was nice, spending that extra time gathered around the tree J I don’t know, there was just something really nice about it this year J
Overall, it was a very nice holiday break. Of course, there are always moments are unpleasant memories brought up of people or events, and there are parties that you may not wish to go to but have to anyways. It happens, that’s part of what happens during the holiday season. It is just a matter or focusing on the good and not letting the bad get to you J I swear, I think some people are allergic to the holidays. It is like all these people get deathly ill right around Christmas and as soon as it is over, they’re A OK! My boss at Hallmark is like that. She gets all stressed out and I don’t think she really even likes Christmas time. Then when Christmas is over, it’s like she’s ok again. I feel sad for people like that because it truly is the most wonderful time of the year!
So yup Break is officially over and classes have officially begun. Man, the schedule really sucks balls. I’m not going to lie. Lol. However, I had my schedule T/R done at 2:18 and then at the last minute I got in a the Spanish class taught by my summer spanish professor (best professor at OSU! By far!) and that class is every single day at 2:30 to 3:18. So then I had to rework my school schedule, because lets face it, I’m not driving all the way to campus, taking the bus over and then taking the bus back 45 minutes later and driving home. Nope. Lol. Not going to happen. So I got in a few M/W classes and then I have to still drive down for the one class on Fridays. So yes, This is my scary ass Schedule this Quarter:
M/W English 520 (Shakespeare)
T/R English 201 (Early Brit Lit)
T/R Sociology 597 (Globalization and World Poverty)
T/R English 378 (Film and Lit Shakespeare)
MTWTF Spanish 104
Online History 111 (World History)

Work:
T/R 5:30 to Close
F open to 1:30 or 5:30 to Close
S Open to Close (usually a 6 to 8 hour shift)

So yeah. Fathom having that schedule and then get back to me about having such a hard time at OSU. I have English majors who whine about how hard their work load is and they’re only taking 15 credit hours. They have no idea. And I just love people who don’t even work and only take 15 credit hours and then have the nerve to talk about how much work they have and how stressed out they are. I don’t care what your major is, if you can’t even carry a job while in school, don’t bitch to me. Lol. Anywho… So yes. That is my schedule. At the end of winter quarter I will be 32 credits away from graduating! I’ll take 25 credits next quarter and then I’ll go first term summer quarter taking whatever the hell is offered. Lol. And then I’ll be done July 24th! Yipee! So yup. That’s the plan.
By the Way, if anyone ever wants to hang out, I actually have quite a bit of free time on Mondays and Wednesdays so we could do lunch or something. Let me know J

Toodles and Schnoogles,

Kelsey

So why is it that I’ve become so incredibly lazy? I can’t even be bothered to read the required text for my classes. It’s true. I have yet to actually read a book that is required for college. Lmao. However, I can’t even do things I like, such as update my livejournal! Argh! I’m such a failure (and kind of a badass since I don’t read and still get fairly good grades. Just think what my grades would be like if I actually did the work! Lol. Yea… I know, I fail ) Anywho… there are some things to update about but mostly my life hasn’t changed. Just plain… and BORING! This quarter was the WORST EVER! I mean, I hated every single class I was taking this quarter. Actually, that happened with me last autumn quarter. I dunno what it is about Autumn quarter but it’s the pits as far as I’m concerned. Lol.
I really should write more often. I don’t get to say a whole lot throughout the day, whether I’m working or at school, so writing is a very good outlet. So what is there to say? Well, Lets start with what hasn’t changed… Living at home, broke, going to osu…which I HATE… still single and lonely. Lmao. Still working at hallmark (which I really enjoy but don’t make enough money to save very much for Taiwan) still planning to graduate this spring, however I may stay on for summer quarter because I won’t leave for Taiwan until December and going 1st term summer quarter will allow me to stay on my parents insurance longer. Wohoo! Lol. So yup. Still planning to go to Taiwan to teach for at least a year.
So what’s really new with me? Not very much. I’ve hit the 100 mark on course credits! Lol. Actually, now that this quarter is over, I’ve hit 119. Pretty sweet. And next quarter I’ll be taking 30-35 credit hours ( a lot will be online! Awesome!) Don’t really know what my schedule is going to look like yet because at the moment I’m trying to get into a Spanish class that is taught by the coolest Spanish teacher on campus! Sweetness! But if I don’t get into that class, I’ll get going Tuesday/Thursday from 7:30 am to 2:18 pm. So, not bad at all. Lol. I love online classes!
Work is good. I actually got offered a promotion, however, I didn’t know exactly how my school schedule was going to work so I had to turn it down. It sucks, but it would have been a requirement of at least 30 hours a week. I think I may try and get a second job at safelite this next quarter. I need to start really saving up for Taiwan. Yup. Less that a year and I’ll be in Taiwan! How awesome is that??? I mean, sure, there is PLENTY that I’m going to miss and I’m sure I’ll be home sick at times, but I have to do it. It’s just something I’ve wanted to do for so long now, I’ve planned my graduation and my future around it and I just have to do it because it’s going to be awesome! And if it ends up sucking…I’ll pay my way out and go back home. Lol. No one says I have to stay for the whole year if I’m down right miserable. I don’t really see that happening though.
There will be SO much to do! Bamboo forests, coral reefs, surfing, hiking, boating, skiing, you name it and they’ve got it! Plus, I have to fly over to China to hike the Great Wall and I’m going to fly over to Japan and hike Mt. Fuji (and maybe visit Hokkaido, since that’s where I wanted to be stationed if I applied for the Jet program…which I didn’t, in case you were wondering. Lol ) So yes, I’ll be so busy that I really don’t think I’ll have time to get too home sick. Plus! I’ve found several animal shelters I would like to work with while I’m there! (Taiwan’s animal treatment is a bit behind the times, not unlike most Asian countries) Also, I’d like to pick up some Chinese. It would take me forever to write out all the job possibilities for someone who is fluent in Chinese here in America. Lol. So yes, I think Taiwan will be a great experience, I mean, how many people do you know that can say they lived and taught in Taiwan? Lol. It will be one of those things I’ll tell my children about when I’m older. Lol.
Anywho… anything else that is new with me? Not really. I mean, nothing surprising at least. Spike, my fair gold fish is still alive and kicking! He has to be at least 8 inches in length by now. Lol. He has a whole 20 gallon tank all to himself! Lol. And he’s loving it. Sparky, my Betta, is doing well too! I’ve had him since about October, he’s a Meijer purchase. Lol. I have to say, I was a bit worried buying a fish from Meijer, but he’s been awesome! A real trooper. People complain about how hard it is to take care of Bettas… so either Sparky seems to be an exception or people are just failures. Lol. I’ll go with the the latter. Lol. I do know that he’s had trouble with the cold.. But he’s in a half gallon wall bubble and they don’t make heaters for tanks that small. So, I’ll light a candle and put it on my night stand, some what below his tank. That seems to keep him happy J
Wow… a whole paragraph about my fish! Can you see how boring my life is???? I can’t help it though. Between school, work, and my laziness and overall drive to do anything… I don’t have much to say. Lol.
You know what is awesome though? Woodwick candles. We sell them at work, and when they burn they sound like a crackling fire. Well, I’ve had two since last Christmas but never really used them, so one night I got one out and burned while I was reading and I LOVED it! It really does sound like a crackling fire and I just love it! It’s lasted a pretty long time too! So if your in the market for an awesome gift or an awesome candle for yourself, Woodwick candles are your best bet. And they burn SO much better than crappy Yankee candles. They are a bit pricey… but they are well worth it. When I get my 50% off at work, I’m going to be buying like 4 of them! Lol. Especially in Vanilla Latte! It’s one of the best scents available! Lol. Yea, I know, I’m weird.
So yea, this quarter has pretty much really blown. I’ve hated every single class I had. It was to the point where the night before classes, I’d cry because I had to go to school all day. I can’t even tell you how many classes I missed this quarter. It’s just plain sad. I couldn’t help it though. I really really just couldn’t bring myself to go to some classes. I know, it’s pathetic, but that’s the way I get in the fall. they call it seasonal depression. That is why I should just take the fall off from school. Every fall I just end up fucking up my GPA. This quarter got to the point where All I wanted was a D in Spanish to pass and I was going to be happy. Now, I think I’m looking at a little high than that, but still, that’s pretty sad. When you go from getting a 3.7 GPA to praying for a D, you know something is wrong. So yes, hopefully next quarter will be better… it couldn’t be much worse.
Lol. I do have to say that I wrote two very good papers this quarter. Sure, that’s like two out of like 10 but whatever. I really liked how my history paper turned out. Everyone in the class wrote about Genghis Kahn or Confucius. I, however, wrote about Mulan. It was pretty bad ass. Lol. Then this other paper was for my English class and it was about poetry and I don’t know fi you know this but I HATE poetry. To all extremes do I hate it! The only and I mean ONLY exceptions being Edgar Allen Poe and Basho Matsuo (and music, but that doesn’t really count, I mean common, that’s rhyme put to music, it’s different) So anyways, I wrote this paper on Poetry and just went all out BS into total depth about what each little detail meant, etc. I don’t know what grade I actually got but it got me up from a C to a B- so it probably wasn’t to bad. I should be disappointed with the B-, I know, but the problem was that the grades didn’t come from how good the writing or argument was, the grades were all about whether or not the teacher agreed with your interpretation. I mean, HELLO, it’s an interpretation, who knows who is right? And why much every little thing in a story/book/poem have to mean something other than exactly what is being said? I swear, some English people are a little too “deep” for me. Anyways…. Lol.
The Holidays are FINALLY here! We’ve had the lights up since a week before thanksgiving! Lol. But all the other decorations and such still haven’t been done. Luckily, we’re going to go hunting for a Christmas tree this Friday! Yay! Last year we didn’t get to go out because someone was sick, I don’t remember who. Lol. Doesn’t matter, but anyways, we usually go out to this place out in the boonies and take hot chocolate and get all bundled up, hike really far out into the acreage and then find about three awesome trees and then spend about two hours deciding and arguing about which one we should get! I love it! Lol. It’s one of my favorite Christmas traditions. One year we actually got to cut down out Christmas tree by moon light J it was a lot of fun! So yes, the holidays are finally here! So this is my list of things I would like to get to do during the holiday season!
DONE (1) Cut down a Christmas tree, Clay Family style
(well, sort of. we all went together to pick one out at home depot. lol)
2) go to the Zoo’s Winter Wonder Lights
DONE 3) See the Nutcracker
DONE 4) Drink Eggnog
DONE 5) Send out Christmas Cards
DONE 6) Adopt children for Christmas through my Church
(Adopted 7 kids! YAY!)
DONE 7) Decorate the whole house!
DONE 8) Watch A Muppet’s Christmas Carol with my Family
DONE 9) Make Cookies with my Mom
DONE 10) throw a Christmas Party!

So yup, these are all the things I want to do this Holiday Season! Not including all the things I always love to do, like decorate the Christmas tree, watch all the Christmas specials, hang my Harry Potter Stocking :-D Go to my Grandmas for Christmas eve, spend time with friends, wrap lots of gifts! ( I love wrapping gifts!) gossip about my annoying family members, you know, the usual stuff! Lol. I already have all my cards addressed and stamped and all my gifts are wrapped! They just need bows and ribbon but I didn’t want to do that too early or they would get crunched and messed up! I just love Christmas! Can you tell? Lol. I’m already going to be all set for Christmas when I get my own place. I have two large tubs FULL with ornaments. Lol. But I figured I should buy while I get 50% off. Lol. Because I won’t be working at Hallmark forever and their ornaments are EXPENSIVE! Lol. I love me some hallmark though. I could see being a manager of a Hallmark some day. That would be really awesome. You know, if I don’t become a teacher, publisher, translator, etc ;-) lol.
So yup, I think I will leave it here for tonight, because I should have been studying/reading for my last final and instead I decided to play Solitaire, watch Asian Dramas, and write a two and a half page long journal entry. OOPS. Lol. Oh well, after tomorrow this quarter is going to be over and I’m not going to even care what my grades are going to be. I’m going to just look forward and put all my effort into next quarter and make sure it doesn’t end up like this quarter did. It won’t though. I’ll be riding with my mom, and somehow that helps me get through the day. Lol. I dunno! We’ll see! Only time will tell.
Oh! And by the way, look forward to a lot more of this entries, I plan to update a LOT more regularly from now on. I like to write it all out, it helps me relieve stress, get down thoughts, etc. lol.

Toodles and Schnoogles

I wish I had someone to hug, like in my userpic. things have been hard. really hard. and I just keep fucking myself over again and again. I don't know why I feel the need to do this (subconciously of course) but I do. again and again and again. so yup. I need a hug. lol.

Well my friend, the end of yet another year is upon us and it is time for that lovely little tradition of new years resolutions, however, this year, i fully intend to go through with my new year resolutions. So here it goes, my (somewhat long) list of new years resolutions:

1) the timeless tradition of, of course, losing weight. However, at well, my weight, i'm not being one of those people who are in good shape and still feel like if they just lose one more pound they will look a ton better. No, I need to lose the weight for both health and social reasons. No guy looks at a girl my size and thinks, "damn! she's hot!" it just doesn't happen. Also, with the long list of health problems that run in my family, I need to be as fit as possible. (and as a special bonus! If I reach my goal weight, I will get myself a massage and pink highlights! not to mention a new wardrobe! Bitten, forever 21 and lots of awesome cosplay outfits are calling my name! lol)

2) I will buy with each pay check either one barbie thing or little girl play thing for next december's adopt a child program at my church. I wonder how many kids I can adopt?!?!?! (also, each pay check I intend to buy myself one book from my book list!)

3) No more fucking around at school. I'm going to get the grades, even though I hate OSU. I'm just going to do it and get it over with. A possible Major change in my future? hmmm. it's possible. It is now highly unlikely I will be excepted into the nursing program this year. So If that is the case, I probably won't give up on my major, I will merely decide to double major and get all the prerequisites out of the way for nursing and then focus on either english or visual communication design next year.

4) I am going to not only keep my room clean, it is going to be organized and I plan to take the time to start clearing out and also making my walls awesome with framed puzzles, etc. then I can have people over!

5) I plan to try and make some actual friends at OSU. there is plently of great potential and I plan to make the best of it and really try to make an effort in the friend department.

So there you have it. My 2008 New Years resolutions! I don't really think that any of these goals are too far out of reach. I really plan to work hard this year to achieve each and every goal!

You know what's sad? besides finding out I get to be a volunteer at the osu hospital, the best part of my week (including the weekend) was watching the new Barbie movie, Island Princess. yup, it's official, life sucks.

wow. ok, so where to begin?It's been so long I feel like I've lost my ability to write, and yet I know it's here deep down....somewhere. So where to begin, where to begin. Well...Let's jump back a month. lol.

I went to See Drake Bell at the Fair with my brother Colton. We went down early so we could do the rides and such, and I have to say, it was probably one of my favorite things I did all summer. We did the shooting gallery, did a couple of (dare I say it, UNSTABLE) rides. lol. I even won a fish! (ok, well my brother actually got the ping pong ball into the little glass ball...but i paid for it. lol. ) I would have to say that that is my absolute favorite game at the fair and the only one I played. lol. So I was excited to win a fish! It's name is Sushi. lol. and He is is alive and well. I've even bought him this awesome wall tank in the shape of a half bubble that hangs on the wall in my room. it's 2 gallons so its plenty big for one goldfish. lol. and he's MUCH safer away from Jinx who decided one day to go fishing. lol. Anyways.... Then it was time for the concert and I don't know who the girl was that opened but she looked to be about thirty and I hate to be brutally honest but she was really really bad. Then Drake Bell came on, and although it may be hard to believe, he is even better than his CD when he performs live. Which is actually a huge compliment because I haven't found too many bands that that applies to. After Drake was Corbin Bleu but we didn't stick around, I was so deaf from all the screaming girls i think i've yet to regain all of my hearing. lol. So yet. that was a blast.

Then There was the Highlight of my summer and one of the top highlights iof my life...meeting Marat Safin!!!! I had watched him practice on Sunday and then play( and lose) on Monday and on Tuesday morning my family and I decided to hit the waffle house before my dad and brother went to king's island and my mom and I went back to the tennis matches. Then while we're sitting there, waiting on our food, my dad gets all excited and is like omg, I think that's marat safin sitting over there! and I was like "yea...right...nice one dad." and when I turned around to look knowing that he wasn't really there, my jaw dropped so far I think it hit the ground. On the other side of the waffle house sat marat safin eating breakfast. lol. Apparently he was in a really bad mood accoring to the waiter. lol. but who wouldn't be after losing in the 1st round? i know i'd still be a total bitch the next day. I was kind of afraid of asking for his photograph because I really really didn't want to bother him but I also knew that I would hate myself if I passed on a once in a lifetime oppertunity. So we waited until he was done eating and went outside when he left and asked if he would mind getting his photo taken and he was extremely nice and smiled and talked in his beautiful accent. I could have died and gone to heaven. In fact, I can now die a happy human being. well...maybe not yet. there's that whole sex issue... ;-) So anyways, yes. I met Marat Safin in a Waffle House, my new favorite place. lol.

So after the tennis tournament we headed to washington D.C. and it was hot and hot and there was a lot of arguing and promises of this being the last family vaction...EVER. but besides that...it was fun. It kind of fect like once you've seen it, you've seen it and there really isn't anything different. I would have loved to of been able to spend a lot more time in the museum of Art anf there was an Asian Exhibit going on that I would have liked to of seen. I did get to see several cool things like Kermit the frog,the red shoes from wizard of oz, mister rodger's sweater, Washington's battle outfit, r2d2 and the other one from star wars, the puffy shirt .lol. howver that was only one exhibit. I think part of my problem is my family and I have too different tastes in certain things. First of all, everything government pretty much bores me. Yes, I was glad I got to see it and don't get me wrong, i enjoyed seeing it again and spending time with my family (most of the time) I especially loved seeing the dome mural again and seeing the whispering room. However, politics is jsut SO boring I could die. But yet, it was a good trip overall, hot and some sparks flew, but overall good. I guess part of the problem was nothing was going to top meeting marat safin. lol.

After my trips, I've been working a lot and until ryan went back to school, I babysat him. We went bowling two days in a row his last week. I LOVE bowling. in fact, it's one of those things I wish I could do like every day. lol. they should sell year long limitless bowling passes and I would SO have one. lol. So yea, not that ryan and colton are back in school. I've spent my time running 8 hour shifts as work, cleaning my room(which is now almost done) watching korean tv shows ( i heart Coffee Prince) watching borrowed library movies (two thumbs up to will ferrell and shia labeof!) and getting ready for school.

I got to go down to my grandma's for a day last week, which was really nice. I took down some stuff incase I ever stay the night at her house while i'm at osu and we had dinner and talked and shopped a little and then we went to see Becoming Jane at the Grandview Drexel. That theater is so cute and cozy :-) I have to say, I honestly loved that movie. sometimes I don't want a fairytale happy ending to everything, thus real life turned into a movie. I only really had one problem with the movie and that was because I am afraid that I too am going to end up like that. I know, i know, it sounds stupid and overly dramatic but seriously. it was like watching my own movie. how sad is that? anyways, i loved the movie and i loved my grandma's little comments about how ugly the guys were, etc. even more :-D its fun to watch a movie with someone who does the same things you do. lol.

You know, people have been asking me if i'm excited about college or is there is anything i'm looking forward to about college, and honestly the answer is no and no. I'm not looking forward to doubling my gas money amount, i'm not looking forward to having to get up at 6 to get down on campus before 8:30 each day, i'm not looking forward to working 12 hour shifts on the weekend because its the only time i have available to work because my schedule is so fucked up, i'm not looking forward to classes or being forced to do stuff I don't want to do. in fact, to be perfectly honest, sometimes I feel like I don't want to go at all. sometimes i feel that this is not the life i was meant to lead. everything about my life is wrong and so i guess i feel that college is yet another thing i'm doing wrong. i'm not excited, it osu, osu which i've heard about, talked about, and have been to my entire life. where is the fun in that? you know what i would like to be? a writer. do you have to go to college to be a writer? no. I would also love to be a storm chaser and yes, college is a must, however...do you know the salary of a storm chaser? lets say myself and my cat would be very comfy in a crappy one bedroom apartment for our ENTIRE lives. I know i'll like nursing...but what if I don't? what if it sucks? all this time, WASTED. I dunno, so far, college seems like sucha busted. i'm not excited...i'm dreading it. loathing it, counting the hours of freedom I have left. UGH.

If my life itself wasn't already a mess...look at me. at the rate i'm going, i'm going to die young and alone surrounds by 5 cats and a whole house filled with nothing but movies and books. so why does it really matter what i do with my life? no one has ever been happy with me just the way i am, so i guess lately i've gotten into the mindframe that i'm no longer happy with me just the way i am. I'm just going to have to deal with it and change into someone that I actually like. I'm either going to be like one of jane austen's characters who has trouble in the middle but it's happy in the end or I will be like jane austen who although had a great career, went through sooo many hardships and still she never got her happily ever after.

Well, it's late and after 8 hours of work too many oreos and too much lack of sleep, I have created this long ass ramble of a blong that goes off into so many directions you could get lost if you didn't have a map. Well, I think that I will get some sleep sing yet again I have another 8 hour day at work. yay.... *hint sarcasm*

T&S

Kelc